Portal

by Deborah Gee

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    Deborah Gee’s debut CD is an intimate collection of songs featuring the singer-songwriter’s distinctive vocals and contributions from luminaries Alan Myers (Devo),Mike Clink (Guns & Roses), C.J. De Villar (Gilby Clarke), Michael Woodrum (Eric Clapton), Jon Ingoldsby (Elton John, Madonna) and others. Features Pearl, from the soundtrack of The Smokers.

    Check out this song by song review by The Muse Patrol: themusepatrol.com/2013/01/27/lost-treasure-deborah-gees-portal-reopened/

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released August 22, 2000

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Deborah Gee Los Angeles, California

Raised in Mineral Wells, Texas, Deborah Gee moved to Los Angeles and began performing in the mid-1990s at local music spots including The Troubadour, Molly Malone’s and Genghis Cohen. Gee signed a demo deal with A&M Records and released her album PORTAL in 2000.

Gee is working on her second solo release, GEEOLOGY.
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Track Name: Say What You Mean
A delicate haze hung over me, as I woke from another dream.
Every nerve in my body felt like a strained harp string.
And the message I got was to have the courage to change.
Veiled ghosts hurried past me, can I put them to rest?
Saying things we wish we hadn't, truth is like an avalanche.

Say what you mean, mean what you say,
but don't say it mean, don't be afraid
Say what you mean, mean what you say,
what do you need, what do you mean?

I don't want to read between the lines, I stand guard at my mind I know I'll survive.
Such torments of grief we endure over a tongue without cure.
The sealed walls that surround you, you think for protection.
The tangled tongue that twists into such, such destruction.

Say what you mean, mean what you say,
don't say it mean, don't be afraid.
Say what you mean, mean what you say.

Say what you mean, mean what you say,
don't say it mean, don't be afraid.
Say what you mean, mean what you say.
What do you need, what do you mean?

Say what you mean, mean what you say,
don't say it mean, don't be afraid.
Say what you mean, say what you mean.
What do you need, what do you mean?
Track Name: Risk
The cage of myself clamps shut. I turn the lock on my words.
I pretended you didn't hurt me but inside I died.
We exchanged blind words, I didn't cry...
Maybe I will next time
Funny how dreams disappear under layers of life.

It's a risk to take the next step, a risk to get your feet wet.
It's a risk to fall down, a risk to try it again.
It's a risk to give, a risk, a risk to live.
There's nothing to lose, just live.

These questions linger in my heart... do you want me? Do you love me?
So I take a deep breath, with no guarantee,
but a chance to ask for what I need.
What a concept!

It's a risk to take the next step, a risk to get your feet wet.
It's a risk to fall down, a risk to try it again.
It's a risk to give, a risk, a risk to live.
Risk this, yeah... a kiss.

I saw a friend of mine sewing her heart back together again.
She now wants to live for more than two minutes between men.
Change can come like a freight train and sometimes I'm afraid.
But I'd rather hit a wall at ninety, than to be stuck inside my brain!

It's a risk to take the next step, a risk to get your feet wet.
It's a risk to fall down, a risk to try it again.
It's a risk to give, a risk, a risk to live.
There's nothing to lose...

It's a risk to take the next step, a risk to get your feet wet.
It's a risk to fall down, a risk to try it again.
It's a risk to give, a risk, a risk to live.
There's nothing to lose, just live.
Track Name: Naked
Dressed up like a funeral, the girl felt scratched and naked.
With a hard wind now blowing, her youth was taken.
She stood there in front of the church, she stood there in her swollen dress.
"Confess your sins" they cried, while they stoned her with their eyes.

She stood there naked, her soul exposed. Naked under the microscope.
Amidst a hypocritical mass, in a spell that had been cast.

In that waking hour she felt so confused. All she wanted to do was go lick her wounds.
Children having children. You know, now she was no virgin.
It was taken away.

She stood there naked, her soul exposed. Naked under her microscope.
Amidst the voices of her head, now clothing an unborn child with flesh.

Images of pagans, and lusts of Christians,
man's pretentious inquisitions.
Twisted attitudes of self-projection,
what is blind has no reflection.

She stood there naked, her soul exposed. Naked under the microscope.
Amidst a hypocritical mass, in a spell that had been cast.
She stood there naked, her soul exposed. Naked under her microscope.
Amidst the voices of her head, now clothing an unborn child with flesh.
Track Name: Perfect Girl
Midnight fantasies lying in bed, one hand on your trigger,
feeding your head.
All the personalities rolled into one, she's your sugar coated flavor of the month.
Demi-Gods and Joan of Arc, you put them on a pedestal to be knocked off.
I'm tired of your uncertainty. You're so afraid of the real thing!

She's your perfect girl, a flawless blend,
whipped to your perfection.
She's your perfect girl, your means end,
guaranteed satisfaction.

Do you think you will find someone better than me?
Don't hold your breath, you just might die.
That's reality.
On the outside things look fine. I haven't told you how I feel.
And I don't want to personalize, but I am.

She's your perfect girl, a flawless blend,
whipped to your perfection.
She's your perfect girl, a film version,
guaranteed satisfaction.

Holding on to all the lies, holding in all my cries.
You holding out until the sky falls.

She's your perfect girl, a flawless blend,
whipped to your perfection.
She's your perfect girl, your means end,
guaranteed satisfaction.
She's your Holy Mary, painted perfect,
a symbolized fashion.
Your perfect girl, a film version,
guaranteed satisfaction.
Track Name: Treasure
Some treasures stay forever unearthed and some stare you right in the face.
Some treasures you try to erase and some you forever chase.
I see the truth in you, I hope you see it in me too.
You are gold inside, you are. You are a precious jewel.
So I'll help you remember, and you can help me too.

I sat on a pile of priceless wealth, afraid to share myself.
Now it's time to give that up, live my life, give it love, love, love.
I see the truth in you, I hope you see it in me too.
A fine spun pearl you are, you are a precious jewel.
So I'll help you remember, and you can help me too.

I know, I know, I know, it's easy to get lost inside.
But there's a map to the road that will lead you home to behold the truth.
I see the truth in you, I hope you see it in me too.
A fine spun pearl you are, you are a precious jewel.
So I'll help you remember, and you can help me too.
You are the way to the treasure, it's inside of you.
Track Name: Just A Kiss Away
I saw you from across the room and it hit me.
Electricity through my veins, like a heatwave.
My heart was racing as I thought 'do you want me?'
Oh, I caught that smile. You're giving me the eye,
I'm just a kiss away.

Tripping over these lips of mine as you walk by.
Wearing this silence like the night as I step aside.
As I fondle this weakness in my body,
pressing berries to your lips, this perfume on my wrist,
I'm just a kiss away. Just a kiss away.

As I'm dreaming, my mind on cruise control,
you burn me down to red hot coals, my mouth no longer thirsty,
Nobody knows, nobody knows how deep it goes.
Just a kiss away.

Will I wake to the wings of your roses? To a fire?
Will I open a door in your eyes to a key called desire?
My heart is racing as I think 'do you want me?'
Oh, I caught that smile. You're giving me the eye,
I'm just a kiss away. Just a kiss away. Just a kiss away.
Track Name: Warning
The unexpressed gets pushed down deeper, a splinter of silence wedged.
It becomes a sore inflamed to the bitter end.
I need to take time to stop the confusion... Warning!

I just stopped over to tell you goodbye, I know now I can't rely on you.
Your lip service was well played, and somewhere in me I was thirsting.
I gaze in bewilderment, these feelings penetrating me.
I seek a release. It's scratching at, scratching at my sleep.

I need to take time to stop the confusion.
I need to lift the veil of illusion.
I'm not your object or your play thing.
You need to be labelled warning.

There was a coldness behind your eyes I missed.
Seems like an undercurrent of narcissus, I guess.
I'm amazed how you stay numb to it all, and on the surface all remains calm, remains calm.

I need to take time to stop the confusion.
I need to take time from this emotional collision.
I'm not your object or your play thing.
You need to be labelled stop, stop, stop! Warning!
Track Name: Washed Away
He was melted carefully down for you, cast up from your childhood.
The fuse inside him is the wound that binds him to his mortal sin.
He was the sum of you, and a dream now blue.
He was all your hopes and everything new.
You thought he was the answer.

Washed away at point blank, like a beautiful watercolor.
Washed away, you can't be replaced, you thought he was the answer.
Washed away.

You had style so ripe and a smile so bright, you were so inviting.
He was the wind that swept your tidal wave, you thought he was the answer you craved.
He was the sum of you, and a dream now blue.
He was all your hopes and everything new.
You thought, you thought he was the answer.

Washed away at point blank, like a beautiful watercolor.
Don't you know you can't be replaced, you thought he was the answer.

You shared your bed, offered up yourself, all you could give.
Now shame upon your lips, sliding on ice so thin
You thought, you thought it would never happen again.

Washed away at point blank, like a beautiful watercolor.
Washed away by some pathetic crave, you can't be replaced.
Washed away at point blank, like a beautiful watercolor.
Washed away, washed away.
Track Name: Pearl
I'm drifting in the wake of empty dreams, there is no use in pretending.
Even a caged bird will sing. Through the sound she finds hidden meaning.

Sometimes a pearl gets lost in the sea of love.
With no way out, no harmony.
And so turns the world.

Down this path I stumble many times. These voices trapped inside while we lay entwined.
What we shared we'll always have. And with this end I paint a new beginning.

Sometimes a pearl can't find a way.
There's nowhere to grow, no place to play.
And so turns the world.

And in the silence of my bed, I look for passage with some kind of rhyme.
How do you, how do you measure time?

Sometimes a pearl must find it's way in the sea.
Some place to grow in spite of me.
And so turns the world.
Track Name: The Child Will Mend
I choke on my tears, I ask if there's an end,
to feel the shame of that little girl again.
She went back to a time where an ugly duckling was,
where she became hypnotized by the potion of a poisoned dove.
She walked for miles down a rusted path, looking for a healer to come release her.
She walked for miles on busted glass, picking up the pieces everywhere.

What's it take to see past the illusion,
When a shadow's so dark it blurs your vision.
When you find the last link of the chain within, break the spell and the child will mend.

Angels dancing round and round my bed, speaking to me through visions in my head.
And they keep saying, they keep saying,
"look within."

What's it take to see past the illusion,
When a shadow's so dark it blurs your vision.
When you find the last link of the chain within, break the spell and the child will mend.